Duur pahaaRi ke peeche doobte suraj ko dekh ajeeb si kaifiyat taari hogai thi Saima ke dil par, na chahte hue uska dil phir gehri sochon main doob gaya tha, shayad apne aap se sawaal kar rahi thi ke uske ranj.o alam ka khaatma kab hoga...gulaabi jaaron main shaam ka dhundalka dheere se chaaron oar phail raha tha aur tareeki apne pahloo mein yaadon ki baraat le kar hazir ho rahi thi..Beete lamhon ki chubhan uske dil ko tarpa rahi thi..Aur wo ek baar phir usi gham.e dauran ke bhanvar main doobne lagi...Jaise taise usne bedili se ghar ka saara kaam nibta diya aur apne kamre ki tanhaai main panaah lene aagai...Ek sard aah bharke wo easy chair par baith gai...Ek pal ke liye uski nazr us computer par jaa tiki, phir bedili se computer par waqt guzaarne ka khayaal dil se nikaal diya...Khamosh apne sochon main gum kahin kho gayi thi...Uski ankhon se bebasi ke ansoo ris rahe the aur wo bistar par jaake let gayi aur apni neend se jung karne lagi...saari raat ek beqaraari main guzri bistar ki silwatein gawaah thi is baat ki..Madham roushni main dooba kamra tanhaai aur dard ki gawahi de raha tha.. ghari ki tik tik aur Saima ki siskiyon ki karaah se fiza ka sanatta dur ho raha tha..Dewar.o dar se ik ajeeb si wehshat baras rahi thi..Na jaane kab wo rote-rote so gayi thi..shayad usko bhi iski khabar na thi..
Chidiyon ki chahchat se Saima ki neend khul gayi..Na chahte hue usne neend main ik karwat badli aur neend se bojhal khoobsurat ankhon ko malne lagi ..Na jaane kal raat kitni der ke baad uski ankh lagi thi....Baargaahe Ilaahi main sar basujud hone ka waqt tha...Bistar ki garmahat main ik angdaai lete hue uth gayi aur gusalkhane ki oar chal padi... thande paani se wazu karke RAB ki baargaah main khari ho gayi..Sidqe dil se wo namaaz ada karne lage...Jab namaaz se farigh hui to dauraan.e dua uski ankhein besaakhta chalak padi...Bohot kuch apne RAB se kehna chahti thi lekin chup-chaap uth khari hue aur jaanimaaz ko teh karke mehraab main rakh diya...Bekhayali main hath uske gaalon se ansoo ponchne lage aur Adat ke mutaabiq uske kadam usko bawarchi khaane main le gai...Ankhon se ajeeb sa soonapan chalak raha tha...aur wo apne aap main simatne lagi aur apne baahon ko shanon pe kasne lagi, jaise kissi ka narm ehsaas yaad aagaya ho...Usne pateeli main dhoodh patti aur shakkar daalkar gas par rakh diya aur chai banne ka intezaar karne lagi...Jaise jaise chai ubaal pe aa rahi thi uske seene main dafn ehsaas bhi ubalne lage the...wo apne dil ko samjhaate hue chai cup main daala aur balcony main chali aayi...Subah ka dilkash nazaara dekh dil phir bechain hone laga...Badam ke ped se chhanti suraj ki halki kirnein, daal par baithe rang birangi chehchehaati chiriyan subah hone ka ailaan kar rahi thi...Wo ek thandi aah bhar ke balcony ki munder se lag kar khari hogai..Narm aur thandi hawa uske baalon ko sehlaane lagi...Jaaron ka gulaabi mausam tha to suraj ki roushni poori tarha zameen par bikhri nahi thi...Oos ki chadar se saari faza dhanki hui thi..shabnam ki boondein phool pattiyon par motiyon ki tarha bikhri hui thi, jaise raat shayad kisi ki bebasi par namdeedah ho...qudrat ka husn qabaen chaak kar ke bhi Saima ke dard ka madawa na kar saka..Usko qudrat ke nazaaron main bhi lutf nahi aa raha tha...Jab dil ki zameen hi khushq hogai ho to is banjar dil par mausamon ka kya asar hoga..Har haseen manzar uske dil par qahar dhaa raha tha...Issi kashmakash main uski nigaah duur pahaar par jaa tiki..Wo pahaar jo uska sukh dukh ka saathi tha..wo jab khush hoti to us pahar par timtimaati madham si roushni main apni khushi talaashti aur gham se jab bojhal hoti to ussi pahaari ko apna dost maan kar apni bebas bhari nigaah se usko takti rehti..Kya kashish hai us pahaari par.shaayad wo sukoon jiski usko talaash hai...Adamzad ke wahshi qahqahon se duur us pahaari par jaake rehna chahti thi wo...Lekin kyon? kya wajah ho sakti hai? itna bara faisla..lekin zindagi aur zimmedariyan kahan peecha chhorti hain...Usko to inhi rishton main rehkar zindagi ko aage le jana hai, na chahte hue bhi...Apne labon par jhoothi hansi saja kar har roz har lamha jeeye jaana hai..Uske ranj.o gham ki koi qeemat nahi...na hi uske ansuon ka koi kharedaar...Bas har lamha armaanon aur ummeedon ke janaaze pe Taj Mahal tamiir karne ka jhoota sapna..har lamaha halat.e ezteraab ka, umangon ke khoon ka,rooh ke majrooh ehsaas ka..Ek aur shaam, ek aur raat aur phir ek aur taweel din zindagi ka, wohi Saima aur wohi Saima ki tanhaai...!!!
Written By,
"Aarzoo Mehek"
